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Gloria Pang

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Friday, February 28, 2014, 11:44:00 AM

Trip was amazing in many ways


But at so many junctures waves of missing you so so badly hit quite relentlessly

I do, so much it hurts and at times excruciatingly so

People sometimes say its the festive seasons that amplify absences
I feel it most in the mundane moments
The times i wake up and think about having breakfast at the coffee table but too many of these moments were spent with you, and I cannot 
Bring myself to want soft boiled eggs on rye crackers with kaya or sweet potatoes in the morning


This first venture abroad without you at home was bittersweet because i know that this is how it will be from now 
Landed and wanted to text you to say Im safe almost instinctively but couldnt, tried to brush that aside

Souvenir shopping for you was always a joy I can picture your wide grin bc you were always contented with the smallest of gifts/ requested for none at all 
At home you would bug me to show you pictures; i rly wish i relayed more than "fine" and "alright" bc i think if you were here now i would talk and talk and tell you about the past months from start to finish and maybe not stop talking in between tears of disbelief/ joy


Love and miss you 





Against the backdrop of all this... Is Your love that completes me




"Yet not what I will, but what you will. Jesus is subordinating his loudest desires to his deepest desires by putting them in the Father's hands. As if to say, 'If the circumstances of life do not satisfy the present desires of my heart, I'm not going to suppress those desires, but I'm not going to surrender to them, either. I know that they will only be satisfied, eventually, in the Father. I will trust and obey him, put myself in his hands, and go forward.
That love- whose obedience is wide and log and high and deep enough to dissolve a mountain of rightful wrath- is the love you've been looking for all your life. No family love, no friend love, no mother love, no spousal love, no romantic love- nothing could possibly satisfy you like that. All those other kinds of loves will let you down; this one never will."
- Tim Keller




Tuesday, February 25, 2014, 2:42:00 PM

"The requirement of judicial review in all divorce cases involving children may, ironically send inappropriate signals to parents at the time of divorce: it may suggest to them that because of the divorce they are no longer entrusted to be adequate parents, and the state will not assume on an ongoing basis special responibility for their children. Such signals are not only gratuitously insulting, but wrong: the state does not and cannot assume broad child-rearing responsibilities after divorce"


Interesting perspective feel like the more i read the more discernment I need
Society/ the world is changing/ so are values but Kingdom values are constant




Monday, February 17, 2014, 9:56:00 PM

gid on being excited to bookout: "cant wait for fruits" is also why we r sibz hehe




12:15:00 AM

one of the craziest weeks to date
with 6 meet ups, including 3 birthdays, 2 deadlines, 1 test, and 3 formal meetings.
but I'm thoroughly thankful.

thankful that there's a TL team that just inspires me so much in the way they desire and pursue God and walk with Him so faithfully
thankful for friends whom i've been so blessed by and get to show them how much I appreciate them.
thankful for the opportunity to serve You, to love Your children
thankful for avenues to put things I've learnt into practice, thankful I get to learn/ thankful I get to do things like write papers on 'migrant workers and sense of place in Singapore'
thankful for a team who also understands that I am new just as they are but are excited to serve alongside

thankful also for people who sow into my life

thankful that I'm privileged enough to be off to London in less than 48hours.


there's always much to be thankful for.





Friday, February 14, 2014, 9:36:00 AM

"' Imagine you were in Egypt just after that first Passover. If you stopped Israelites in those days and said, 'Who are you and what is happening here?' they would say, 'I was a slave, under a sentence of death, but I took shelter under the blood of the lamb and escaped that bondage, and now God lives in our midst and we are following him to the Promised Land.' That is exactly what Christians say today. If you trust in Jesus' substitutionary sacrifice, the greatest longings of your heart will be satisfied on the day you sit down for that eternal feast in the promised kingdom of God."


-> thought for the morning is- how much am I seeking to be satisfied by God and His words and promises and things of His Kingdom.


take me deeper




Monday, February 10, 2014, 10:48:00 PM











missin my lil bro
also feel like i haven't prayed so much for someone in awhile / ever




Sunday, February 9, 2014, 8:04:00 AM

thankful for friendships that exist even if we're 12 hours apart
thankful for people who don't have to but do anyway-
'Glo update us on your bros enlistment! Ask away if uve got any qns'



learning i think.

I need You to pierce through the dark
and cleanse every part of me


God such a reminder that at every juncture it is You who stood beside and was always present



truly lagging with this sem's work. gonna give it my best and just surrender.


rough days are rough but Lord help me love and praise You e v e r y d a y




Tuesday, February 4, 2014, 3:21:00 PM

feel like I/C-ing GC CC has been quite a humbling experience/journey.
began with expectations of myself/ my leadership
but realised that when it comes down to it its a lot different from what I anticipated.

sometimes timelines don't work out
sometimes we need to push/ rush people even though we don't want to
sometimes sticking to stipulated ending times of meetings incurs trade offs
sometimes/ often you don't do as well as you hope to
often you don't know everything and are not the best one for the job

but it is all o k
we all need grace

thankful I'm shown much.
:)



hopefully will transfer these things to levelup and not feel so scared about it.
bc it occurred to me that I'm.. possibly rly quite afraid haha.
its ok if I'm not the best one for the job..... Lord let it just be about You and willing hands and hearts.



also feel like today was a semi-huge
'why'd/ why would you ever doubt Me/ doubt that I have the best for you' from God




9:27:00 AM

Double tapped bfast this morn bc brinjal :> 






Sunday, February 2, 2014, 10:14:00 AM



will always, always remind me of you.



overwhelmed by both the internal & external.