I wanna know the sound of Your heart

just got back from yingqi's place.
im kinda tired though! cos we didnt sleep all night, after xianning left, we played bridge for 4 more hours and it was simply hilarious laughing at ellyn! and i got super high on the softdrinks and bid 5. haha. and sabo-ed my partner. but omg, once, i bid 5 and i partnered ellyn. and we won! hahha. yes omg. :D
ellyn"[yawned] i feel like a lion yawning, i mean roaring.
" hm, lions can yawn?"
" yeah! lions can la!"
" are you sure?"
" yeah la!"
"are you very sure?:D"
" yes la! i watched lion king okay!"
and yingqi and i burst into fits of laughter.ellyn is super cute! and her prepare for total domination! haha.
we all died laughing mann. :D

so after a billion rounds of bridge we decided to watch something, one tree hill!
all of us, adalie,yuhui,ellyn,charm,vivian,yingqi and i watched till episode three,
then adalie charm and yingqi went up to sleep while yuhui ellyn vivian and i watched till episode eight! haha which took up six hours of the time :D

all the sec fours came except for cherie and macey.
and they dressed as nerds i think. or it was just vanessa and sheena, and cheryl was the farmer thing.
and i forgot to bring newmoon and eclipse for cheryl. haha sorry :D

;all it takes.

wees got a new car):
the old car was cooler.:D
sitting in the boot after farrer park trainings on saturday, waving to all the taxi drivers and car drivers, differentiating the polite ones who waved back and the others who thought we were crazy.
was fun anyway:D

esther just came over for a while, going to sentosa with her tomorrow:D
shall have loads of fun. (:
amelia lau just bailed on going swimming with me.
but it started raining anyway, so that wont be possible.
my bro broke his glasses, so my mum went to fetch him to service it.
my dad is sleeping, and my sister's at work.
which leaves me practically alone at home( which im really not used to) with nothing much to do.
okay, so i do have got stuff to do, etc clean our my shelf and put in stuff for next year. which im going to do. soon. i hope. just feeling lazy.

completely unsure of whether i wanna get back to school, though thats not an option.
but yeah, i wanna see my new class and all, get down to some studying before i feel really pathetic and unintellectual. but everything else, im not looking forward to.
maybe im just being sore and all. but. whatever. try being me. put under this circumstance.
having lived the 12 years of my life that i have.

gonna get back to reading "nineteen minutes" later. which deborah presumed to be chiclit but after reading the first few pages decided against it.
really great book:D jodipicoult writes well :D
on the other hand, i didnt like the kite runner at all, was way depressing i thought.
though it was pretty insightful and lit-ish in the first part.

church later, cant wait to meet the cellies:D and God :D
and feel His presence once again:D

and third, i was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

;You're altogether wonderful to me

edward for the twilight movie is horrible!):
AH. SO HORRIBLE): the bella's fine, but the edward is really really bad, for people who have read,you can google "robert pattinson"
oh.actually ive seen the photos of the cast of edward and bella together and they look pretty good. oh well.! hope when the movie comes out,it'll be just as good as the books. but by then i think the whole world wouldve read twilight!

anyway, deborah,vanessa and aunty vivian left today, leaving danial behind for ns, and esther who's leaving on the 3rd.
went to school at 8.30 to do the badminton board thing.
just watching them walk past made me feel so inferior. and i mentally rebuked myself for not having been good enough while vehemently refusing to believe that,thinking of whatever reasons therer could be to why iwas denied the opportunity and then i forgot to trust in God.

anyway,esther pang has my ipod.
and ive been living w/o it for the two days that ive needed it most.
ah well. meeting her tmr, after chinese tuition, which im gonna die for cos i didnt do the homework. and before church, still not sure if ive got time for cell.

met grachel yesterday:D
talked quite a bit and mostly gathered that my decision in not going to sportsschool was a good one, that i definitely have to thank my dad for. cos in a spur of a moment,due to my impulsivity, i could have landed there.
was fun:D

after our ccao thing, went with boonyi to eat subway.
got to airport really early, sat down to read my book like i always do:D
i just realised, i read alot, plus its all in weird positions and dim light etc, and i got 6/6 eyesight:D
haha, i guess thats something i have to thank the Lord for:D
otherwise i would be playing badminton with glasses.

im gonna be an extremely extreme mugger next year.
somehow. i just need to mug! for every exam. and get my 3.6. haha.
yeah, but i hope this determination lasts me through next year, then maybe it'll really happen.
hhhaha, next year i shall sit in the front of the class with yoke and mug:D
3.66666666666666666666 :D

im excited for school to start!
im serious, i dont know why!
but before you decide to start calling me a nerd, hear me out:D
i know the minute school starts and i receive the first assignment, im gonna wish i could turn back time to the hols. so i obviously do not enjoy work, which therefore doesnt make me a nerd:D
andand, i cant stand the hols now cos there's simply nothing to do! really.
now that christmas is over and all. ive read twilight and eclipse again but not newmoon cos edward leaves bella and its so sad i could cry.
yes, so when school starts i will without a doubt have something/ many many things to do and so i'll feel that im being very productive:D

okay whatever, i think my above paragraph is merely a jumbled post of incoherency but i shall ignore that and continue.
YESTERDAY:D
okay, wasnt all that exciting as the title made it out to be.
went with mum to isaac's place after lunch to pick gideon and play:D
came home, wanted to go swim with grace but decided there was no time.
went out to uncle richard's place for paternal side reunion:D
joey's hair is retarded i swear. and and if anyone hacks my blog, its him cos he saw what i said abt his hair. and is upset.
haha.

seriously, that guy hid from teachers for one term just so he could grow his hair.
anyway, after that, we took mrt to our place for ice cream.
daniel esther joey grace and i.
they're the funniest bunch mann. :D
daniel borrowed my ipod and started singing i want it that way. dont ask me why.
and and he said i sing off key when his singing was off key! ):
grace can vouch for that. :D

yupp, they were all supposed to stay over but in the end decided it was too rush so they;re staying over on new year's eve :D

"i coveted you." His smile darkened. "i had no right to want you, but i reached out and took you anyway. And now look whats become of you! trying to seduce a vampire." He shook his head in mock horror.

merry christmas!:D

received 13 christmas wishes:D
haha 11 when i looked at my phone at 12.03am.
i was sleeping but the noises awoke me:D

my sister happens to think im emo.
so does my mum. no way mann.
a liiiiittle bit of self-reflection keeps your sanity in check!
precisely why my sister is insane/ on the verge of losing her sanity.
she jumps on the bed and starts singing and dancing.
on a school day. when normal people are supposed to be tired and collapse onto the bed.

anyway, havent trained in forever cos coach is overseas, no more sba and sch trng.
feels absolutely weird being free.
i was home the whole day on thursday and had nothing to do.
so i read eclipse all over again, hoping it would keep me busy the whole afternoon.
and it did:D completely mesmerized me:D
[forgive me if i have mentioned this before]

joey came over yesterday, cos i was free:D
swam, watched him do his weights in the gym.
haha. and he made fun of me. whatever, he's a guy.
supposed to be strong:D
went to isaac's place for dinner.
played with his wii, which was fun and really tiring.
which once again reminded me that i do need to start training before my muscles start depleating.haha.

im in 204 next year!:D
and really really glad cos i got nice people in my class:D
and fav 105'ers :D

;im forgiven because You were forsaken

christmas musical yesterday was great:D

"do you think studying and getting a scholarship will be saving money?"
"do you think by training all the private trainings you'll be saving money?"
"dont go after the title lah."

i let the betrayer tears roll down my cheeks.

i feel sick>.<, like a horrible fever's gonna/has hit me. and my head hurts):
plus im alone at home):

was home the whole of yesterday,which got quite frustrating.
read eclipse the whole afternoon and once again fell irrevocably in love with edward cullen. :D
they shouldnt come up with the movie! ):
destroys our mental image of edwardddd.
argh.

had dinner and posted the previous post, and went jogging thereafter.
shall post chinatrip photos again later, forgive me if i repeated a few, honestly cant remember which ive posted already.

woke up at 11 today and left for tuition, feeling absolutely sick in a cab.
unbeknownst to me, i left the whole bunch of keys in the cab, and only realised on the way home.
started freaking out so bad and was close to tears.
im serious, my dad gets extremely pissed whenever we lose keys.
and that bunch contained ALL the keys to the house.
which meant that i was dead x100000

called the cab company, which took an agonizingly long time to answer me.
prayed super hard. and praise the Lord, my keys were found:D
so i am glad:D and thankful:D very thankful:D

realised i havent eaten my lunch.
buti dont feel hungry. just sick.
mann im pretty sure im having a stinking fever>.joonting just sent me the timings for CCAO,which takes place on the 28th.
12.30-2 : myself, vivian charm and xianning
2-3.30: amanda, clarisaa, valerie ellyn.
3.30-5: liying, adalie, boonyi and krystal
5-6.30: joonting jiayi jess yuhui.

i feel horrible now, i will collapse onto my bed and post chinatrip photos some other time.

went out to watch grace train.
damn, i miss tennis so much.
it sucks knowing you have to slog so hard for something that seems so unattianable altogether.
whilst if you had just stuck to doing something, you might've had it easier.
but i guess the love for the game makes up for it. at the end.

pictures from long ago:D

i am sleepy):
not too sleepy but still sleepy cos its 12.23 and yesterday's sleep was horrible.
sister's friend stayed over, so they decided to crash the bed and 3 of us squashed on the queen sized bed.
by the time the lights were off, it was 2. and they wanted breakfast in the morning, so set alarms to go off every minute from 5am.
and im a pretty light sleeper, so the minute the alarm went off, i was awake.

got to school early for school training cos mum had to pass the car to dad by eight.
waited for people in the foyer and discussed the planfortheday with boonyi:D
some math people were there too,for extra math classes for the gifted in math.
haha i seriously wonder what would compel me to wake up so early in the morning to do math.
they probably enjoy it though, the challenge and all. haha.
gosh, i have got to be more hardworking, school's starting already!

training was pretty okay.
suffered from badcramps but decided to persevere:D
primary sixes came.
geps. smart people.
doubles with vivian(: lost to boonyi&ellyn by two points):
tragic.
so had to run ten rounds.

went to boonyi's place after training to dump out stuff.
her lift is supercool:D goes right to her doorstep.:D
went to parkway with boonxin,vivian and clarissa.
ate pastamania due to vivians incessant demanding. :D
played arcade! which i havent played in ages mann.
daytona was fun:D owned both times:D

got to xianning's place for the christmas party, clad in red.
in the end, no one wore green, all red, haha , good for national day:D
some people played in the pool, while i kept dry.:D
something i deduced from this year's experiences: RGBT works extremely well with cards.
seriously, give us a few decks and we'll keep ourselves entertained for a long while. :D
played charades : super hilarious. burst into fits of laughter when charm and i were supposed to act hihipuffyamiyumi or however it is spelled.

hitched a ride from adalies mom along with yuhui and clarissa around 11.
got home aroung 11.35. latest ever.
surprised mum didnt call me at all. oh well.

;use it for Your glory

yesterday's school training was really really good,
yao jiao lian made our aches disappear today mann:D
super cool:D
though yesterday we were all still writhing in pain.

watched mr magoriums wonder emporium, really cool and touching.
walked around in a desperate attempt to get some christmas shopping done.
but with 15$ in your wallet, nothing much can be done.
charm bought presents for her cousins, which i chose, haha the colours only:D
went back around 4 cos there was a family reunion thing.

so it was all the families, uncle hung. uncle hee how, aunty soon cheen, and dad.
everyone:D was cool cos uncle hung & family havent been back in such a long time.
joey's hair's super retarded, couldnt recognise him at first.
looks like some wannabe japaneseanime.
and he demands we go prawning again. haha:D.

today.
trained in the morning.
got home.
went out with amelia lau and her sister cheryl.
met cheryl's friend.
bought christmas presents for grace and gideon:D
so glad i got stuff done.:D
made cards till now.
and grace's friend's staying over.

:D

;Lord, i offer my life to You, everything ive been through, use it for Your glory.

training today.was.painful.):
tanapats a mean person>.<
cos her leg didnt ache anymore,she was showing off and running so fast to spite us all.

didnt get to play doubles!
did a drill with jap-anime lookalike and yingxian:D
who were being extremely nice and didnt hit in front for me to run:D
but after 45mins of the drill, or an hour im not sure, pan decided to play doubles with us!
haha,surprise surprise.:D
and she decided too partner me, in the hopes of having a partner who can run for her.
unfortunately, i wasnt the best candidate, and we therefore lost the first set.
upon losing, she decided to partner jap-anime lookalike guy, and they thrashed yingxian and i.
haha,but partnering yingxiang is always hillarious:D

mummy came to pick me up, was supposed to go pick joey from the airport,
but didnt in the end cos no one else was going):
went over to amelias place after a bath:D
watched tv and did random stuff.
uncle hung brought back cherries, so had to distribute them with melia,
and gave to the wees and laus :D

;Lord,give me a heart that longs for you.

went to the aiport with denyse in the end,
and got to service half an hour late>.<
oh well! denysetan wanted to hide in the toilet so val and i abandoned her.
she smsed us so we told her that june cannot see her and therefore isnt giving her attendace.
haha,so she came out:D
were supposed give flowers to them,but left the job to the guys in the end:D

met denyse early,so we walked around terminal 3.
singapore airport is super cool mann:D
makes me miss beijing trip though):

sermon was really good:D
i felt so tired for the guy though, he was like talking with so much energy.!
its all about your relationship with God.:D

my legs are still aching horribly!):
i have this grave feeling that they're getting worse.
but i gotta go down to sba for training tmr though, for attendance.
its doubles anyway, hopefully, i little slacker.
jamie's helping me collect the ashaway prize:D thanks:D

;he's the song in the car i keep singing dont know why i do

today.was tiring.this whole week has been.i shall blog chronologically.
or at least attempt to.
but,sba wants us to go down to the airport tmr to welcome seagames people.
haha,as bad as my attendance is, i dont think i wanna do that. airport is far away.
and its at 4,and theres cell and church at 6.so no.

lost doubles this morning, to the twins.
oh well.thighs are aching damn bad.
i hope pan spares us physical this sunday.i think my legs will just break.
after match went out and ate sakae with vivian:D
the retarded person.
she" you ____ like______
me" are you serious?
she" are you glad?
me" dismayed.
haha. vivian is funny.

went home, supposed to go for learning lab.
but received news from someone that kendrick was gonna play.
so ponned learning lab and watched.
cos mummy wanted to watch too.

talked to xianning. :D
spilled quite a bit eh.
rather weird though.but interesting nonetheless.

ren bu ke mao xiang, hai shui bu ke dou liang
my chinese is getting good:D :D
haha. i hope so at least.
chinese tuition at seven thirty, was pretty fun:D

;i thank God i found you

today has been a long day.
yes,very long cos im eating my dinner of cheese toast at 10.48pm.

match in the morning against amanda and deborah,won but was close.
19-21,21-9,21-11 or something.
first set was very scary,i think cos we didnt really know how to play them at first.
so tmr's semis against yong xin and hui, praise the Lord:D

had lunch with amanda,vivian and yingxian cos karen had to go.
yingxian left thereafter and so we decided to watch a movie.
which was when things got a little difficult.
amanda and vivian wanted to watch golden compass, but i didnt cos its anti-Christ.
and i made her call sheena to prove it, during which sheena was very helpful:D( no sarcasm intended)
so after remaining adamant for a while more, and in amanda's desperation to watch a movie, we watched Alvin and the chipmunks:D
its a good show, im serious, really funny:D

my mum called in between cos she called june.
my attendance died, so june explained the situation to my mom.
next year, they're taking in only 5 sec 1 and sec2s so altogether five.
conducting trials, and i might not be able to go bcos of my attendance.
so after the movie, walked around abit with vivian and we went down to sba.
spoke to june, and chionged all our attendance forms. which im really glad for:D

training was pretty slack,cos vivian and i and the japanese anime lookalike guy chose to slack.
oh well.
but then physical killed us i swear.
we did 30 squat jumps , times 6 sets.
after that, once i bend my knee, whole body collapse.
then pan made us run 10 lai hui, times 2.
so we thought "okay lor"
after jogging half the length,vivian and i stared at each other and stopped.
seriously, our legs were like jelly, running was never such a great feat since i was 3.
sucked.big time):

charm and i were holding on to the handles whilst walking down the stairs, we swung ourselves down cos we couldnt bend our knees.
and i sat on my butt and slid down one side.
was bad,extremely bad.
and there's match tmr.
oh well.

Lord, above all, let your will be done, whatever it is, whatever the plan you have for me. cos i know, its one not to harm me, but to prosper us all.

was out the whole day today, from 9am.
went to rosyth to train.
realised how much the new principal has changed the school, and i must say, i dont really like it):
ahwell.
it was great being back in rosyth anyway:D
at first,clarissa and i didnt dare go up,we were waiting for joonting who overslept:D haha.
but was only 10 mins late.

cabbed down to tampines.
match was pretty okay:D
tmr against nicola and a rosyth senior peijia:D

went down for chinese tuition till five thirty,
was pretty fun:D
laoshi's nice.
but she keeps going on abt how busy i am, thus making it difficult for her to arrange tuition timings with the rest. >.<

went to sba to train:D super hardworking can:D
haha. reached around 6 to find tanapat trying to sleep and nathaporn playing quadrapop,which i completely suck at.
so i played solitaire on my ipod:D
and attempted to sleep.

training with tanapat is fun,
we were doing the fang shou thing, tanapat attack at the back, i in front and kalesh defend.
her : eh how you say tired in chinese
me: lei
her: how to say very
me: hen
her:how to say i
me: wo
her: wo hen lei, i very very tired, wo hen hen lei! haha.
no direct translation m'dear:D

in all i do, i honour You

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
uh, i didnt really think anythink cos the morning groginess was still getting to me:D so if you ask me anything at that time,dont count on my answer being accurate:D
2. When is the next time you will have ***?
sorry,had to censor that. IGNORE THIS QN.
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
bore.HAHA. ooh,reminds me of our new rhyme for charm. created by yuhui yoke and i. " the rain in spain falls mainly on plain charmain." :D
4. Favourite planet?
haha, my limited general knowledge tells me EARTH:D
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
Gideon Pang, my bro.ahha i couldnt find my phone so used his phone to call mine:D
6. What is/are your favorite ringtone[s] on your phone?
my memory card is screwed so i have the nokia ringtone, but its pretty nice:D
7. What kinda shirt you have on?
haha the yonex yellow colour small shirt. from doubles with vivian/
8. Describe yourself in one phrase
as tired as [i dunno, whats tired?] a dog?!?
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
not wearing any, at home:D haha. liberty of feeling your feet on the ground
10. Bright or dark room?
ehh, the room light is on, but the table with the computer's light isnt on. so kinda dark.
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
haha.VIVIANCHOW loves caiyun.
12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
it depends which looks more inviting. haha,came out slightly wrong butyou get the idea:D
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
im not sure if i was asleep yet, but if i wasnt, i was lying on my bed,in deep thought:D
14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile?
from YOKE " Hahaha. Okok. Tell me later. :D" she wants to go out with me tmr:D
15. Where is your letter box?
uhm,outside my gate.haha.
16. What's a word that you say a lot?
uh.does haha count?
17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
HAHA:D
18. Last furry thing you touched?
uhm..im not sure,really. but couldve been my dog. :D
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
HAHA.NONE :D retarded qn.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
i own a laggy digital cam:D
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
i must say,this year, 13:D the year's been great, sad that its coming to an end):
22. Your worst enemy?
like person or anything? i dont hate anyone,so no enemy. haha, prob LAZINESS. i need motivation!
23. What is your current desktop picture?
collage:D
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
i think "okay" to my mom.
25.If you had to choose between a million bucks and being able to fly , which would you choose?
FLY:D ultimate coolness:Dreminds me of the discussion we had this morning,about the traffic congestion in beijing.
26. Do you like someone?
define: like:D
27. The last song you listened to?
ehh. the song. by all american rejects. it ends tonight. my ipod was on shuffle/haah.
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at,would you jump in front of the bullet?
yeah,if my reaction is fast enough. last personn i talked to: my mum.
29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
no one.haha.violence is not the way to resolve your problems:D
30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
a bunch of wires. haha. im not really tech savvy you see.

haha,the long overdue chinatrip photos!
i tried to upload in chronological order,but to no avail.
all the photos were everywhere.haha.so yeah.:D

plane ride back! midnight flight. missing on the seat on my left is cheryl who kindly volunteered to take the photo:D

haha,xianning!

dinner! first day;s food wasnt too bad!

doubles with vivian,ahah i have no idea who took this photo.

last dinner before departure,dongjion's treat at donglaishun. :D

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plane ride there!

sec 1s discussing sec4 farewell gift. in jiayiand tangmeng's room.

the playground.haha where we forgone/went/go our coldness to camwhore. haha my english, i know.

changi airport! :D :D before departure

school training today was pretty fun:D though during the first half i was kinda dazed cos last night we had a sort of reunion and i stayed up pretty late.

i realised not only how much youve changed, but like how difficult it is for us to talk to you, genuinely.or.nevermind.

YESTERDAY:
finals! pretty interesting,glad that huinkit and julian won the chinaboys.
imports should seriously go back to their countries mann.
charm!cheer up alright:D you fought hard!:D

went out with charm yingqi boonyi val adalie.
to suntec.
ate nydc,and was extremely full.
sat around the fountain of wealth playing bride, till we got chased away.
i swear, val is such a blur bridge player! im sure yingqi can vouch for that! :D

we're through to semis:D
praise the Lord:D
without Him,im nothing,with Him,all things are possible:D

went to boonyi's place after afternoon match with adalie.
watched license to wed,which was a really retarded show, and half of music and lyrics,which was really nice:D just a tad unrealistic though.
had dinner and left for sba around seven plus cos matches were at 8.45.

yeah,haha i realised ive been spending the whole day out these few days, mainly at sba.
oh well. tmr's against siewfen and weihan. haha ive got nothing to say.
we'll just fight hard and see how it goes from there.

the only way you can really love is by loving and "unlovable" person God puts with you, so that you'll grow in the fruits of the spirit. Lord,help me to love.

we.

went for school training,of which only eight of us attended,
boonyi,xianning,joonting,me,jessica,yoke,clarissa,jiayi.
training was fun yet not too tiring and a good warm up:D
so i managed to play much better in the afternoon than on the first day.

jess,boonyi,xianning and i left to xiannings house for lunch half an hour before training ended,
watched a funny show, mr deeds i think.:D
yupp.

won our match today:D against st joseph girls,i think.
oh gosh my memory seems to be failing me>.<
oh well! the team stayed back, with the intention of going out for team dinner.
in the end,mace,vanessa,sheena and some others da pao-ed chicken rice for us/
haha,whilst we stayed there and played bridge and taiti,like in beijing.
ooh,but all of us won our matches today:D

;Lord without you , i am nothing

stayed over at amelias place with alicia after basil's birthday barbecue.:D
i got a wooden splinter stuck in my index finger,by the satay stick/
cos it was short, i had to get amelia to try remove it for me,cos ive got extremely short nails.
however,she pushed it deeper in such that it was only sticking 1mm out of my skin.
ANDAND,amelia couldnt find a pair of tweezers.therefore i resorted to applying cream and hoping it will soon disintegrate or something.
haha.

match today.was so screwed.omg i played beyond crap can!
it was horrible.mortifying and embarrassing.>.<
though we won.it was close.oh well.

went out to eat dinner with charm vivian boonyi val and amanda after our matches.
ate swensens at suntec,which made me broke.
but was extremely fun nonetheless.:D

went to train with panpan!:D
omg training was so slack.and so many people came.
super fun.:D we did one person smash one person lift,
then played doubles, and then practiced service.
by far,the best training with pan ever:D
hhah i just realised i define best by slackest. im such a slacker.
but then again,pan's training doesnt really make much of a difference, just went to get attendance,in a desperate attempt to at least get above 3/4 the required attendance.

i cant take my eyes off you.
this cant be happening all over again.

;tell me why

whats up with you.
why do you keep wanting to attract my attention.
when we clearly agreed that we dont even want a glance at each other anymore.
im not gonna turn around and beg you to be mine,
if thats what you're hoping for.
i do not,get you at all.

;through it all

rosyth pb exco'06. p6s at the back except for two.

candid!after national day marching

yoke's blog reminded me of boonyi's *ahem* leg tumour,which she went off showing everyone unashamed of what the tumour was made of.haha.cos no one else knew.

oh,cheryl had mylove stuck in her head cos it was the last thing my ipod played on the way back.:D

realised how short the trip was.but i think it was quite a bit to handle,especially for the teachers.so i guess it was really good.

though china was mainly for training.cos it wasnt so productive,and there were only 2 training sessions. oh well. plus we dont sweat at all, or just a little bit.seriously cannot be compared to sba. the minute you get in you start sweating.
therefore, eating&eating&eating + not sweating = gained lots&lots of weight,and thus deemed unfit for competitive physical activities.

at least i think so, not confirmed yet, but cos everyone's going overseas and there;s tournament and everything else life brings, we've got no time in dec.

creepy.like we're just sitting around,waiting for time to pass,whilst doing things to keep our mind off the thought of waiting,just waiting for time to end.

but then again we think and realise. our ultimate goal here,on earth, is to spread the gospel, the good news. and that,in fact is what we're supposed to be doing.

anyway, im really glad that i used so much of my lip balm in china, or for having brought myself to do it.

i've been extremely unwilling, for the past 12 years of my life to have anything go on my face or body. esp creams/lotions/whatever. (reminds me of cheryls double whatever),dont ask me why. :D

oh and sunblock,seriously, everytime my mum would have to threaten us all to put sunblock before training(tennis) or she'll make us quit. which theres no longer a need for.

oh gosh i seriously cannot stand it. cos you know, convincing people is extremely tough esxpecially when you have no idea how to find evidence and you can only do it verbally plus that person doesnt really wanna listen.

and i hatehatehate it cos that person's impression of you totally becomes warped and you're just an innocent person who meant no harm to anyone at all.yes, i completely hate that and get upset over it very easily. >.<